This is my 45th post,
don't worry, I'm not gonna runaway,
(like my tagboard)
so I saved you people from relinking =D
I'm feeling super fucked up now,
I don't give a flying shit what you think,
or who reads this,
just don't go telling the whole world,
eg. mama
Today, went to fetch my ah ma again,
it was raining,
so I decided to bring my nike bag,
to shelter her, cause I didn't know,
there was an umbrella in the car.
I didn't wanna go initially,
I don't like to see people in pain,
so I tried to find excuses,
but she called me selfish.
Would a selfish person be willing to use,
her brand new bag as a umbrella cause,
it is waterproof?
Carrying an umbrella would be too obvious.
My ah-ma was in pain,
I can't stand it,
so I took out my ipod,
and blasted the music,
until my ears hurt.
The nurse called me insensitive,
cause when when ah-ma was calling out to me,
I looked away.
I cannot bear to let my loved one see my tears.
When my ah-ma spoke to me in dialect,
I don't understand it,
so I wheeled the wheelchair away,
the nurse translated for me, and said,
that she wanted me clean up the tissues she left behind,
because of that, my ah-ma scolded me.
Well, people say I'm a selfish person.
Anw, well, fetching my ah-ma to my uncle's apartment,
she could barely walk,
the whole journey took about 15 minutes,
all the time, the music was turned on so loud,
so I cannot hear her groaning in pain.
People say I'm an insensitive person.
I had to hold the heavy door and lead her in at the same time,
my assholic only know how to sit or the couch,
and stare,
eyepower,
what a jerk, cause I was struggling, and I hit my head.
I pity his wife and ah-ma,
his two sons are just like him,
like father like son, or should I say sons.
I took a long time to get down,
cause I don't want my mum to see me crying,
today is a terrible day.
I'm a selfish and insensitive person today.
Just came back from cycling,
I decided that cycling around the estate,
is much safer than roller blading,
and cycling will not attract so many stares.
I borrowed my brother's bike,
cause I don't have my own.
I don't understand why must I ask,
and agree to his terms and conditions,
while he can just takes my roller blades,
without my permission.
Oh man, but cycling trains up areas,
which blading and running cannot,
and even going upa gentle but long slope,
is not an easy task.
I just trying to get my mind of things,
so decided to cycle up all the slopes I can find in Hougang,
the last one was the one at Bowen sec,
before I decided to go to school.
Oh man, I was tired from crying already,
and cycling so many slopes already,
that one nearly killed me.
It took almost all of my willpower to cycle up,
without resting.
Anw, journeyed to school and back,
school was another slope -.-
Luckily I reached home in one piece.
